Erti kehambaan, hakikat kehidupan

Assalamualaikum wbt to all my dearest sisters whom I dearly miss and always remembered in my doa. MasyaAllah, it's almost x7/12 we'vee been back but why does this heart ache seem to be more than the home sick feeling we used to get? Why does this heart feels more empty than when we were away from the land of so called 'negara Islam'? Why do we feel more alone than when we were the only Muslim in our whole class/ placement among the other British? If only, we decided to stay... I'm amazed at those who never thought about tis and feels content with the life you are living at the moment. And I do hope that any of us who manage to do that to share their tips so I can feel the same way too (thinking of dina because she's amazing at adapting, every obstacles she sees as opportunity not a big hole where you'll end up sinking in :)  I do miss you dina and your spirit) Ain and I been trying to keep in contact although it is difficult looking at our busy

it is difficult to understand why people acted the way they do, speaks what they have spoken, what more with the unthinkable thoughts running through their mind... it is difficult, absurd, to try to understand it all. Alhamdulillah, He through His Prophet saw, sent down His great words, A guide for me, For us all, So I would not have to understand all this mind bogging questions, Why? How? What on earth? Alhamdulillah, All the answers that matter, Is all in His love letter, And so I am going to stop questioning, And to start spreading, His word of peace and love, To know that I will find solace in His word. -ya Allah, coming out from my comfort zone and now fighting in the real battlefield is not an easy task, seldom i fell down, trying to get up again with many scars and burden I carried along, only to You I ask for forgiveness and strength...