Erti kehambaan, hakikat kehidupan

 As it gets lonelier nowadays, more questions popped up on my mind  I started to understand things more now and questioning less  Staying true to curiosity kills the cat which I disagree so much before but now perhaps it is more relevant than ever  It is so tiring living in this world now I have given up on social media nowadays that everyone is trying to show all in the web as if anyone really cares  I just want to stay true to myself  After passing one of the hardest exam I have ever encounter I felt that one of the heaviest burden has been lifted however many things remained the same still  There will always be new challenges or things which you put on hold to be taken care of  There is no running away from responsibilities  As life is not about sleeping, eating and repeating itself over and over again It is when it has meaning that it is called LIFE where you could LIVE in  Chasing over your dream no matter how ridiculous it could be...

Mother to daughter, Yang Hee Eun & Kim Chang Ki   I thought I had just closed my eyes for a brief second But I've already become old I thought you would always be a little child But you're already grown I still don't know life very well So I don't have much to say to you But with this heart wishing you more happiness I search inside my chest for words to tell you "Go study" no, that's too mundane "Always be kind" no, even I couldn't do that "Love no, that's a hard thing to do Find your own way in life I thought I had lived life long enough But I'm only 15 years old I wanted to always be that lovely daughter of yours But I'm already so unlovable I still don't know life very well So I have a lot of things I want to learn But when you just keep repeating the same words to me I shut the door to my heart more tightly "Go study" I know how important that is too "Always be kind" can't you see I'm ...

 Tomorrow will mark 1 year that mak has left us, it might be like any other day for others but to me it will be the saddest day of my life.  Every now and then, I will miss her phone call that I used to lament about. 'Ema balik makan?' Every now and then, I will wonder how much tissue she would have used if she is here.  Sometimes, I recalled the time we spent stuck together at the hospital and going back and forth from IJN to home, listening to Happy by Pharrell and how she said she liked that song. How she always fall asleep in front of the television and I would always tell her to go in and go to sleep.  Everyday, as I looked back I know all her life she live for others, for me, my sister and my dad.  I hope now she is resting in a better place.  And now, every now and then, I silently pray for her happiness and still hope she will always be looking and praying for me like how she always do. This little hope thou I know those who left has no more attachm...