Erti kehambaan, hakikat kehidupan

This shall be my tribute to my beloved parents, Mak and E, thou with heavy hearts and teary eyes I am typing this, I feel that I owed them, to tell the world how an amazing parents they have been who have made me who I am today....  It has been almost 4 years (next year) since I lost them. It is a roller coaster ride managing the emotions  guilt and hope love and regrets perhaps utmost emotion that is hard to dealt with was the emptiness of knowing some one who is always there is no longer with you...  Have you ever wrote a long love letter to your parents? Posting it across the continent from Newcastle to Malaysia, making the font as big as I could so both of them could read it. I did....   And I still regret it, I wish I would have written more letters and said more I love you and I am sorry I wish I would taken more pictures with them (as I hate taking pictures)  ...perhaps when I got to be the best student in Convent, you only took picture of me without...

  Here I am back on writing up my blog.  Hello world, talking bout chasing the little dream that all of us have  I wanted to play piano so I joined piano class at the age of 35 years old It is embarrassing and I feel so dumb failing to catch up with the 5 year old but I am glad I did it  I did it and I found I am not as bad, I can do anything at my own pace without looking at others as long as I enjoy them So put down those negative thoughts you have and just pursue whatever you want to, next on my list is Pilates and dance class.   Keep thinking of being alone here restrict my activities, but does it? Perhaps it should make me think otherwise. I have no fix schedule or responsibilities  I can meet new people and perhaps learn from them things that I can't from my circle of influence.  Settling down in a new place is not easy, i am still not settling  Still thinking how do I move on  Perhaps being busy at work is just an excuse for me to...