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Erti Kebahagiaan

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Alhamdulillah, segala puji-pujian hanyalah kepada Allah swt pemilik alam semesta. Yang Maha Sempurna lagi Esa. Setelah 3minggu berada di bumi Newcastle sebagai pelajar tahun empat, terasa diri sememangnya telah cukup tua. Lebih-lebih lagi, tiada kedengaran suara zaffan,diey,hanisah,ada dan semua sahabat seperjuangan yang telah kembali dengan jayanya ke Malaysia. I am missing each and everyone of them and to Wan Nurdiana Baizura Wan Hassan dan zauj, mabruk! moga perkahwinan kekal hingga ke akhirat, dikurniakan anak-anak yang soleh dan solehah menjadi penerus perjuangan antuma. Ameen. Walau dari kejauhan dan kesedihan tidak dapat bersama, namun amat gembira untuk diey!!! Moga yang lain yang bakal menyusul,Allah permudahkan segalanya. Doakan kami di sini juga. Sungguh lain tahun ini berbanding sebelumnya...dugaan juga makin berbeza. Bagaikan level game yang akan sentiasa meningkat setiap kali ujian berjaya dilepasi, begitulah juga kehidupan. Allah akan sentiasa menguji hamba-hambaNya dan ...

Hope and faith

Falling, Feeling like I just fell from a very high place and that impact hit me hard, I'm looking and searching, Here at that junction again, Want to make a move, But keep going back, Starting all over again. I feel lost, A lost soul who know the way out, However forget how to do it, Now all alone, In this place where I am a stranger, Although that gives me some piece of mind, To know no one shall bother. Keep refreshing old memories, In hoping to find some answers, To learn from the past, But I end up, Missing those time more, And hating the wrong things I have done. I need YOU, My saviour, To show me the light, And bring me to life, again, So I shall breath, With no regret. Part II-continuation of this wary Who said life would be easy? Nay! HE never promised us that. And so, I am starting where I have left my foot steps. Although it comes every year, it always get harder and harder. I am lost at this junction, hoping for a miracle to happen. I am feeling weaker and weaker, trying...

Muhasabah hari kemenangan 2009

Alhamdulillah, tahun ini tahun ke lima Syawal disambut di bawah lembayung hidayahNya. Segala puji-pujian hanya padaNya, pemilik semesta alam buana, tiada kekuatan melainkan dariNya. Demi jiwa yang di dalam kuasaNya, sungguh Dia akan menguji hamba-hambaNya hingga ada di kalangan mereka yang beriman bertanya, di manakah pertolongan Allah swt? Dan sungguh pertolongan itu amatlah dekat. Dan aku, tidak lari dari sunnah ketentuan Allah swt, diuji dan diuji hingga tiba hari yang dijanji, hari yang pasti, detik datangnya malaikat Izrail mencabut nyawa dari diri. Ya Allah, banyak sungguh Engkau perlihatkan aku mengenai kehidupan dalam sebulan Ramadhan ini. InsyaAllah akan saya ambil peluang untuk berkongsi sedikit sebanyak buat bekalan diri terutamanya, yang sering lupa dan leka. Sabar itu sukar, namun perlu dipupuk Sungguh, jalan sabar itu dengan solat yang khusyuk dan dua perkara ini sukar dicapai. Dan bulan Ramadhanlah bulan paling sesuai mendidik jiwa setelah 11bulan bergelumang noda dan do...

What I cannot change

I have shared this song before and to me this song is Islamic than any other songs... The concept of TAWAKAL A concept where Muslims talk about most of the time,especially in time of hardship. Times where you feel like this life has come to an end with no where to turn, nothing but darkness. And to me, I hold this dearly with me. How this life has been written by Him is perfect but we, as the actor with so many weaknesses, failed to act this life perfectly. What the director has told us to do, we let it pass by without having to think or to evaluate the situation. How easy it is to be imperfect... hurting the people around you for years without seeing the effect on them. I am tired of thinking about him, honestly I do. This pain is self inflicted. All this years I have tried so hard, to change what I cannot change. This hope about to fade, this strength is decreasing day by day... I can't keep acting,pretending everything is all right...